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Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 2, 2009 4:20:53 GMT -8
His jaw was taunght as he glowered to Rosalie "Do you think I had planned for it? no, and your wrong even to accuse that, I tired to avoid Bella you knew that, I left for a week to try, for our familys sake" he hissed pathetically in his human form, And i do Rosalie, becasue you would not shut up about it, becasue I found Bella attratice, I saw somethign In Bella that i never saw in you, nor do i still see, you were jelous! jelous of Bella becasue of the life she wanted that you hated, as per-usual the self-centerd Rosalie only thinking of her needs, I stood back and watched you and Emmet all over each other, then Esme and Carlisle then ALice and Jasper, and I finally find somehting that makes me happy and i get told that no i cannot have it" he seethed, she would never know what he had gone through for a good 110 years, and still he was accused as the bad person, he glared to Rosalie, that moment just as Bella sheepishly came in and took his arm, he looked to Rosalie still "I saved Bella's life, in order to not expose us, too not just becasue i wanted, to, would you rather I had let her blood spill? and then I or Jasper Expose us for what we are?"
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 2, 2009 8:05:43 GMT -8
Bella looked from Edward to Rosalie, then back to Edward. This was getting way out of hand. She looked up at Edward with worried eyes. She'd never seen him this mad before. "Edward, please calm down," she said quietly. Bella then glanced to Rosalie with a pitiful expression. She felt sorry for her. This wasn't what she'd wanted. She'd wanted to be friends with Rosalie. Bella didn't like to hate people. It wasn't in her nature.
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Post by Esteban "DD" Harper on Feb 2, 2009 12:21:23 GMT -8
Esteban watched the confrontation, biting his lip to stop himself from speaking. He'd love to just force them to stop, but Edward had told him not to, and he didn't trust himself to speak to them calmly without using his power. It was so instinctive now it took him more effort not to do it than it did to not use it at all.
Edward left them room, causing Rosalie and Bella to follow him. He half smiled, and sighed. Edward was being polite. Esteban stayed behind, his eyes flying round the kitchen. Their raised voices still reached him, but they were blurry now. He hated seeing people fighting anyway but family fighting was worse.
Not that he was part of a family. No, Esteban was a loner, had been for as long as he could remember. Ever since his family was killed, and he was spared and transformed, he'd stayed alone, in fear of causing pain to others close to him. He'd always thought it was his fault. Hearing there screams, watching the vampires rip them apart right in front of his eyes.
He closed his eyes to stop any tears escaping them, and leaned his head back against the wall as these unwelcome thoughts flooded back and was suddenly very glad he was alone.
Quickly mastering the strange over-whelming emotion, he cleared his expression and headed toward Edward and Rosalie, fed up with there shouting. He didn't particularly care if Edward knew how to stop him, or didn't want him to do it.
"Quiet, both of you," he said, his voice calm but controlling at the same time, as he quickly looked between the two of them, making sure to catch there eyes. "Shouting at each other won't solve anything."
Not entirely sure if he'd made the situation better or worse, he stood his ground and waited for them to reply. At least they could shout at him now and not each other.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Feb 2, 2009 12:22:46 GMT -8
Rosalie subconsciencely raised a hand to her heart, sure she had just felt something break in there. Edward's words had never been so harsh before. She felt a single tear run down her cheek, the first tear she had cried in decades. "I wasn't only thinking of myself" she said meekly. She turned to Bella "I didn't want her to make a mistake, something that she could spend the rest of her existance regretting and wishing she had chosen differently. I was actually thinking about her Edward, were you?" she asked, her voice full of hurt.
"You still chose to keep her in the end. Sure you did your best to avoid her and keep the family secret, but you still chose to risk us all, to risk her life even, over your own selfish desires. If i had found Emmett in perfect health, do you think i would have begged Carlisle to change him? I love him with all of my heart, he is my life, yet i would never have him give up everything that comes with being human just so i could have him" she said, aiming to hurt now aswell. Rosalie huffed slightly. She knew the thoughts going through Edward's head before he saved Bella weren't 'protect the family secret'. They were purely 'protect Bella'. She bit down hard on her lip. Edward had used her own thoughts against her. Things he had heard her think when he had first fallen inlove with Bella . He knew she didn't see what everyone else saw in her and yet he rubbed it in by saying he never saw it either.
Rosalie turned to Esteban as he entered the room and sighed. "I'm sor-" she began to say to him before he ordered they stop fighting. She had an overwhelming desire to stop right there though she managed to force through it. "Esteban! Don't!" she said angrily. "This needs to be said, its nice to know finally know how he feels" she said, gesturing to Edward.
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Post by Esteban "DD" Harper on Feb 2, 2009 13:24:30 GMT -8
Esteban sighed. "Sorry. But please Rosalie, don't, you'll regret it," he said, his tone normal again. "Your family are so close, don't ruin it over one argument."
From the information he'd picked up, most of this argument was about Bella. He'd guessed she would have been trouble from the start, what with her 'humanness', but he wasn't aware of the problems she'd apparently caused. Of course, for a vegetarian family, a human so close by would be a big problem.
He tried to back off, to leave the situation as it was, but he was never that good at walking away. No, in situations like this, he'd much rather attempt to help out. Well, he had Rosalies attention now, so he may as well try a different approach.
He spoke with the same forcefulness. "Think about it," he ordered. "Just think. You're getting each other all worked up, and trust me, that won't get you anywhere. Think about what you're doing, you're going to really hurt your family if this spirals any more out of control."
Esteban paused, hoping this would work. It was true, if the two of them got any more worked up, they could end up doing something they regreted. Better to simmer it now before any permenant damage was done. "Please Rosalie," he repeated, keeping his tone as level as he could when it was wrapped in the ability to control. "Stop."
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Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 2, 2009 14:08:56 GMT -8
Edward glowered to Rosalie, Bella's pleadign and yet concern tone held his fast for a moment, he pursed his lips there was more to be said but not infront of Bella and not infront of Esteban, he looked up as Esteban followed through and came, he frowned "don't" he stated flatly, knowing that of his intentions by looks he looked back to Rosalie, a glare visible in his eyes "It needs to be said, I have more I want to say, but i won't say it infront of our guest, see unlike you again, i'm thinking of others" he mutterd harshly, then wrapped his arm around Bella, and pulled her close to him, he sighed and inhaled the faint scent of strawberries from her hair, to calm himself down "I'm sorry.." he murrmed to Bella and kissed her head. (sorry it's short )
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 2, 2009 14:15:51 GMT -8
Bella looked up at Edward. "Stop it! You're being cruel," she said to him. She was a bit surprised. He usually wasn't so bitter to his family. Maybe Rosalie wasn't his favorite person, but he was never this mean to her. "Rosalie," Bella started, her voice full of pity. But what could she say? She was sorry for her, but what would that do? All she could do was stand there.
(bleh! i hate this post lol)
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Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 2, 2009 14:29:11 GMT -8
Edward blinked surprised by Bella's outbrust, and took his arms away, he then looked to Rosalie casting her a cold look he stalked out of the room, for a chance to calm down, and leave them to it, he headed back out into the kitchen away from them he poured himself a glass of juice and drank it silently Rosalie got on his nerves she always had, since her very transformation, day in day out she relived, what had happen, yes he understood it hurt her, but did she have to make others suffer too? he saw it in her thoughts Jasper felt it, and Rosalie seemed oblivious to the fact she was effecting others, he drank his juice in silence calming himself down, the anger still raw.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Feb 2, 2009 14:34:51 GMT -8
Rosalie held her breath to refrain from crying. She couldn't resist doing what Esteban told her to do any longer. She didn't understand this, she wanted desperately to yell at Edward and call him a cruel, selfish git but she simply couldn't. "I have plenty more to say aswell Edward, you're not alone there" she managed, that wasn't fighting. She shut her eyes tightly, trying to block out what he was saying. Being self centered was how she'd gotten this far. It was how she had to be in order to survive. Surely Edward the 'empath' could understand that. She watched him inhale Bella's scent as though it were some kind of drug to him. In that moment she felt pity for Bella. She'd been through a fair amount herself and she could see that she felt caught in the middle of their argument. Rosalie ran her fingers through her hair and sighed in defeat. She felt pretty humiliated and rather crushed. She wished she had the power to make Edward feel as bad as she did.
She heard Bella defend her...almost. It made her need to cry even stronger. She really was a sweet kid and Rosalie knew it had been wrong to be so unkind to her. She had just felt like Bella had always been throwing everything she felt so strongly about in her face. Perhaps hers and Edward's love was a lot stronger than she thought. She grimaced any how. Why was Edward being like this? Had she done something incredibly cruel to him as of late? she didn't think so. SHe looked to Bella. "Um, i should probably follow him, find out what exactly it is i've done to upset him so much" she said glumly.
Rosalie walked into the kitchen to where Edward was. "Edward what have i done to make you so mad?" she asked in a rather soft voice. Normally she would just assume there was something wrong with him - not her. This time though his anger had truely been directed at her in particular. She didn't want the family to fall apart on her accord. Perhaps now she could prove she wasn't as self centered as everyone thought.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 3, 2009 4:09:48 GMT -8
Edward looked out the kitchen window, and sipped his juice, then he heard Rosalie; from the other room and soon heard her footsteps, then her voice, he pursed his lipes, truth was he didn't know why he was so mad, so cold to Rosalie or the others, perhaps it was the transformation the sudden change and the shock of it, then the delight at the many possibilites many outcomes, he was human, and Bella was too, they could have an actual future and even a family he oute the calss down noting his hand was shaking, what was wrong with him? he should be happy surely, his side twinged, Bella was upset to an degree that he was human, vunrable, and unable to prtoect her, he could win nither way.
"I..I don't know.." he said finally exhaling a long breath as he spoke to her yet looked out the window he paused pursing his lips yet he knew on some level why "How many years have I known you Rose?" he asked flatly "a good 100 and something right?" he said his voice calm and level, yet strained he turned to face her "I know..that it hurts what happed to you in your past I can see it, but i keep seeing it, in your thoughts in your emotion and expression it's still haunts you I know that, but I don't need to be constantly remined it's in your thought it was in your thoughts day in day out, and you still thought about it while i was around.." he breathed out calming himself he looked down "I hate to see you hurting Rose, but your thoughts, your contstant thought hurt me just as much, as I see you, see what happed though your eyes, and I know that pain, and I hate havign to keep going through it, then my modd rubs of of Jasper then ALice then Esme, don't you see why i kept avoiding you? why i accused you of being self-centered? it's as if you don't know, or you don't care, and it irritates me, we all have to suffer becasue you suffer.." he said and paused, silence filled the kitchedn then he continued.
"Another point..I had not loved for 100 years, I had to go through you lot all over each other, and there i was left out, and more alone then you can possibaly imagine, but i guess you didn't notice-" he paused to regain himself he closed hsi eyes and rubbed his tempels "Then I found Bella, and your reaction just drove me mad, I was finally happy and you hated it, Hated that I found someone I liked, someone I found attractive, to find something in her i didn't in you, and you hated it, hated her, and you kept hating her" he opend his eyes to look at her "That time I asked you one simple thing, and your reaction 'why should I?' he shook his head, "You have no idea how i hated it, yes at first I didn't want it to Be Bella, and i left for the week, I tried with Tanya..I tried to like her, for our sake, for yours, and my own yes, but i had valid reasons..then i couldn't I couldn't find Tanya attratice the way Bella was, I came back, again I tried to avoid her, the time i saved her, was not for my own benefit and I know you think it is, moderatly it was for me, but not entierly, but would you rather I let her get crushed and her blood spilled? and I expose us all, I or Jasper? I had two option Rosalie, I thought that option was the best, but again I was wrong..you wern't happy..you never are."
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Feb 3, 2009 12:47:46 GMT -8
Rosalie swallowed hard. She could barely believe what she was hearing. She slowly looked up from the floor and into Edwards face, her eyes glazed over. She bit the inside of her cheek momentarily, trying to stop herself from loosing it completely. When she thought she had calmed down sufficiently, she took a deep breath in and cocked her head to the side. "Do you really think i choose to relive what happend to me everyday? If i could forget it and wipe it from my memory completely, do you not think i would? You don't seem to understand, Edward, that everything was destroyed for me that day and not just because i 'died'. My virtue was forced from me, my pride, my dreams, the man i thought loved me!" she said, her voice slighly strained at the last point. She shook her head, still in disbelief.
"Do you really expect me to be able to just forget it? It was the most traumatic thing that has ever happend to me, something i will never be able to fully recover from! Are you aware of how hard it was for me in the beginning with Emmett? How patient he was with me? No, I don't suppose you are. If something like that had happend to Bella, would you expect her to just get over it? or would you be there for her through her pain? Yes I think the latter. I'm sorry you could hear my thoughts but i couldn't control them. I couldn't stop those images from haunting me...especially when i sleep". she said a little quieter.
"Ofcourse i noticed Edward and ofcourse I wanted you to be happy, just not with a human. Sure its all fine now but it wasn't before. There were too many risks. And of course it hurts me that you see something in Bella that you never saw in me. Carlisle changed me for you but you never wanted me and it hurt!" she added, her voice incredibly strained now. "Whatever it was that you never saw in me, I never saw in me either" she sighed. "And Edward, if you're refering to asking me to put on Bella's clothes to distract James...I'm sorry, it was harsh of me but once again you were risking our family and our exposure for Bella. Can't you see that? Its not at all that i don't want you to be happy, its just the family has to come first" she finished, giving Edawrd a hopeful look.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 3, 2009 14:05:56 GMT -8
he sighed and looked down his lips pursed unsure of what to say, he could hear Rosalie's jelousy and hear that she was upset "I'm sorry Rose" he sighed again and rubbed his brow "It was very incensitive of me, and i'm sorry for bringing it, up yes your right, I'm sorry toto it happend to you and you went through it" he blew out a breath and finsihed off his glass of juice before he turned around to the sink and washed his cup it was often best to agree, but he could indeed see's Rose's point, he frowned as he rinsed then dried it up, silence fell again between them and an uncomfortable one at that, admittidly he wasn't pleased exactly that Bella had defended Rosalie but what could he say, it was unexpected to say the least, but he mulled over his own thoughts welcoming the silence in his mind.
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Post by Rosalie Hale on Feb 3, 2009 16:47:31 GMT -8
Rosalie frowned. She couldn't help but feel that Edward was just agreeing with her to shut her up. The silence between them was awkward and she wondered how long it would take for their relationship to recover from this argument. She could understand how hard it was for him, seeing everything exactly the way she saw it that night. That upset her, not only because of how hard it must be for him but also because it was something incredibly private, something she wouldn't have shared otherwise.
She decided that she really did need to let this one go. If she thought about what Edward had said, that he had called her selfish not being able to control her thoughts, then she would never forgive him, they would never get along. She had hurt him too. Her jelousy and selfishness over the whole Bella situation had caused him great hassel and had deffinately made Bella uneasy. She promised herself that she would try with Bella from now on. Really, there wasn't any reason that they shouldn't get along. She moved across the kitchen to stand next to Edward, putting her hand on his arm. "Look, I'm sorry Edward. You know, i think the only solution is that we forget about all this. We're human now and i think thats cause for a new start don't you? I mean i no longer have to be jelous of Bella...and you no longer have to hear my thoughts" she said, restraining the bitterness from her tone at her last comment. "Can't we just be friends?" she asked him seriously.
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Post by Bella Swan on Feb 3, 2009 17:21:42 GMT -8
Bella had over-heard the conversation between Edward and Rosalie. She was tearing the Cullen family apart. This all happened because of her birthday. All she brought with her, everywhere she went was trouble. If she had never moved to Forks, she wouldn't have made Rosalie so mad, and Edward wouldn't have been in pain when he'd been a vampire. Bella snuck out the door nearest to her and ran to the edge of the woods. When she got there, she sat against one of the large trees.
What was with her? The entire world of vampires were human because of what happened on her birthday. How could she have caused this much trouble? What was so special about her? She mentally kicked herself. This was all because of her. Her fault. Maybe the world would have been better off without her. Bella buried her face in her arms and sat there quietly. She had to find a way to fix this. It was amazing how everyone seemed happier before being human. None of these problems made themselves noticeable. Now they just came out of nowhere.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 4, 2009 3:56:09 GMT -8
Edward looked out the window silently in thought, then felt Rosalie's warm hand on his arm, he sighed then looked to her "Yes, I think that is best.." he nodded and looked back out the window, and rubbed the back of his neck "I'm sorry, for my own brooding, I don't know whats wrong with me, or whats that matter with me, it was very insensitive, for me to mention it, I hope you can fogive my outburst" he added looking back to her he nodded once againthen finally smiled strained as it was "were family Rosalie not just friends" he sighed then wrapped an arm around her in a friendly comfoting gesture and gave her an one armed hug "Your right, lets forget about this, I no longer hear your thoughts or the others, I feel normal, I can be normal, I don't know why i'm making such a fuss" he smiled lightly then paused as he heard the door go, he frowned slighlty curiously, but said nothing, he took his arm from Rose "what are you and Emmett doign for your anaversary?" he asked chaning the topic converstaionally.
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